or “ugly, fat” women kiss
only the heterosexuals and
pretty women kissing each other
are acceptable to watch…
what is this called?
and why did i raise hell?
i could be jealous that he gets turned on by other women in general
or other women in sexual acts together
i could just be taking notice of the fragile masculinity
that makes him ill at the sight of male lips
on male lips
I could be unpacking the fact that he’s comfortable
calling any woman “fat” or “ugly”
and reducing their display of affection to a show
to be judged by
his subjective voyeuristic eye.
(i guess i’d better not gain weight or lose my teeth….)
I could be disappointed that most straight men I know
would feel the same
so he’s not bad. just basic.
or maybe I’m just tired.
upset that that this is not the first red orange flag
somewhere between maleness and toxicity
that has made me question how every dating, straight woman
in this paradigm
-wed and weeping